I've been out of the "fitness scene" for a few years now... And honestly, I have never been more self-confident with myself!
I wrote this blog a few months ago, but was unable to share it because I was afraid of criticism, or for hurting other people's feelings... But now I would like to share it.
This is for my girlfriends who are struggling with their body image.
The best thing that I have done... was to "unfollow" all of my Fitness idols, Fitness mags, etc.
To get myself completely out of there.
I found that when you are idolizing someone, you are automatically putting yourself below. You are not content with yourself, and never will be until you stop comparing yourself to others.
When I was a fitness model... I had a BIG EGO.
Yes, I probably thought I was better than others.
But actually... I had huge insecurities and needed the approval/recognition of everyone else to fill me.
I needed to see people say, "Oh wow... You are so gorgeous. You are so fit... I wish I looked like you".
Without that... I wasn't happy with myself. I defined myself as only a fitness model... That's probably all I talked about, and that's all people knew me as.
Though the image was supposed to be "healthy" ... It was the opposite. Unhealthy for my body, my mind, my heart. And unhealthy for others.
... Breeding a generation of eating disorders, narcissists.?.. Making others feel like they are not enough, or that they are lazy, etc.
No, you don't need to follow and see what they eat.
You ALREADY KNOW. You don't need somebody to tell you.
You know you need to eat real whole foods
You know vegetables and fruit are good for you.
You know that chemicals sprayed on food are probably not good for you.
You know that animals that have been mistreated and injected with hormones- are not good to eat.
You know exercise is good for you (any type of movement)
You may have been led to believe you don't know.... Because businesses want your money. You need to buy the latest protein supplements, pills, gear, etc.
I feel awful for telling my girlfriends to "unfollow" their idols/models/competitors... (Because I have lots of friends who are models and are an inspiration for others)... But if you are comfortable with your body and you are not comparing yourself... Go ahead and support them!
If you find yourself constantly unhappy with yourself... Go ahead and try getting out of that scene. Stop comparing yourself to them. Stop idolizing them.
Start working on loving and accepting yourself, and your body.
